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ISSN 0840-982X

VOLUME 13 NUMBER 2


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Well, now, I'd like to tell you that this is one of those issues that bring tears of pride to an editor's eyes, but I guess that would be going a little too far. While all the issues of the Journal contain helpful, quality articles, every once in a while we manage to pull together an issue that speaks directly to the heart — of child and youth care, that is. This is one of those issues. The materials in this issue address the two central issues of our field: self and relationship.
We open this issue with a letter. In Making a Reflective Relationship-Based Decision: A Letter, Sydney Samakosky tells the story of being asked, by a young man in the care of his organization, to spend the day fishing. The story would be wonderful if only because the very idea of being asked to go fishing seems to us to be central to good youth care, but even more interesting is how Sydney shares his thinking with us about how to respond to the
request.

Next, we welcome back to the Journal's pages an old friend and humoristic teacher, Karl Gompf. In his It's My Kind of Journal: A Love Relationship, Karl talks a little about what the Journal of Child and Youth Care has meant to him in terms of his own development and why he continues to be a loyal supporter. After all, he says, where else could you find a journal that lets authors say "pissed-off"? Ah well, to each his own, and Karl is clearly one of ours.

We also welcome back the warm "Doctor of Wonderland," Penny Parry. In Relationships: Thoughts on Their Origin and Their Power, Penny, to whom relationship is central to being, shares some of her personal experiences in relationship formation and development. Her presence, even in writing, allows you to enter into a relationship with her through the written word.

In Youth Who Attempt Suicide: Exploring Their Experience of Relationship, Carol Stuart offers us an infrequent look into the inner experiences and experiencing of some troubled young people. Through a narrative research approach she allows the youth's voices to be heard and in doing so, Carol demonstrates a skill that is essential to effective child and youth care practice: listening well.

Gerry Fewster is well-known to readers of this Journal. In Turning My Self Inside Out: My Theory of Me, Gerry is at his personal and philosophical best as he reveals to us the meaning of 'self' for him. It is a provocative and challenging read that demonstrates the kind of thoughtful process we need t, bring to our field.

Meg Lindsay is new to these pages. In a recent e-mail she said that she was glad to find a journal in the field that liked stories, and she sent us a few. Well, we are glad that she found us, and in the piece Mary, we think that you will see why. In a few short pages Meg demonstrates the potentially enduring power of the child and youth care relationship. Once again, we see the power of the relationship formed through daily life events.

Mark Krueger is also well-known to readers of the Journal of Child and Youth Care, and we are always happy to have him here. Over the past few years Mark has been researching the role of 'presence' in child and youth care relationships, in a particularly child and youth care way. In Presence as Dance in Work With Youth, Mark shares some of that research journey and his current thinking with us. As always, we are struck by his ability to speak clearly about profound things.      NEXT COLUMN >> 

 

Patti MacKenna is also new to these pages, and we welcome her input. In Self: It All Starts Here, Patti draws us into the developmental world of the self of some youth care workers. In entering that world with her we learn something about how child and youth care workers come to experience self — theirs and others — in their work. We are also pleased to offer this article because, like some of the others here, it demonstrates an approach to research that is well suited to this field: an approach that allows us to hear the voices of those who are the object of the inquiry.

Penny Parry pops up again at this point with a poem, Don't Swear. Creative education has always been a strength of hers.

In a short and direct article, You/Me/Us: Thoughts on Boundary Management in Child and Youth Care, Varda Mann-Feder addresses one of the most important questions in our work: where do I end and the other begin? Personal and inter-personal boundaries are not paid enough attention, we think, and thus we are pleased that Varda has raised the issue here.

Stimulated by a discussion on the relatively new e-mail discussion group, CYC-Net (www.cyc-net.org), Craig Shealy set out to explore the meaning of relationship to child and youth care professionals. In Ask a Simple Question, Get a Complex Answer: Why "The Relationship" in Child and Youth Care is Neither "Sentimental" nor "Bogus", Craig offers us some ideas about what child and youth care workers think about relationships. We think you might be surprised.

Relationships: What Is It We Do?... It Is What We Do! is the title of the next article by Varley Weisman, and it could well be the introductory comment to a discussion with someone who wonders what we mean when we say relationship is central to child and youth care practice. Varley discusses Some seemingly simple, but deeply meaningful characteristics of good youth care workers and insists that we need to deal with our own issues of "relationship reluctance" if we are to help troubled youth develop meaningful relationships with us.

Anyone who is aware of the role of activities in child and youth care practice knows Karen VanderVen. She is a campaigning advocate for the importance of activities in developing relationships of trust and success with young people. In You Are What You Do and Become What You've Done: The Role of Activity in Development of Self, Karen also introduces us to some of her thinking about the role of self in activities with youth. Activities are, she suggests, not only a place to do, but a place to be and develop, with self in relationship.

Meg Lindsay also reappears in Commentary with the story of developing the use of life story books to help people discover parts of their selves that may not be currently present in their lives. In Attempting to Find the "Whole Person", Meg teaches us all a little about this potentially powerful tool.

In our Journal Entries section, Associate Editor Leanne Rose Sladde brings us a uniquely personal perspective from Patricia LaPalme, and in our Book Review section, Steve Bentheim discusses Relatives Raising Children: An Overview of Kinship Care.


Table of Contents
VOL 13(2)

iii Editorial
Questions About Self and Relationship
Thom Garfat

vi In This Issue
1 Making a Reflective Relationship-Based Decision: A Letter
Sydney Samakosky

5 It's My Kind of Journal: A Love Relationship
Karl W. Gompf

9 Relationships: Thoughts on Their Origin and Their Power
Penny Parry

17 Youth Who Attempt Suicide: Exploring Their Experience of Relationship
Carol A. Stuart

35 Turning My Self Inside-Out: My Theory of Me
Gerry Fewster

55 Mary
Meg Lindsay

59 Presence as Dance in Work With Youth
Mark Krueger

73 Self: It All Starts Here
Patti MacKenna

91 Don't Swear
Penny Parry

93 You/Me/Us: Thoughts on Boundary Management in Child and Youth Care
Varda R. Mann-Feder

99 Ask a Simple Question, Get a Complex Answer: Why "The Relationship" in Child and Youth Care is Neither "Sentimental" nor "Bogus"
Craig Shealy

125 Relationships: What Is It We Do? ... It Is What We Do!
Varley Weisman

133 You Are What You Do and Become What You've Done: The Role of Activity in Development of Self
Karen VanderVen

Regular Features
149 Commentary: Attempting to Find the "Whole Person"
Meg Lindsay

155 Journal Entries
Patricia LaPalme

159 Book Review


Editorial

Questions about self and relationship

Thom Garfat

It seems that from the very beginning child and youth care has been concerned with the notion of self and self-in-relationship. Throughout the literature, the workshops, and the practice of our field, self and relationship appear hand in hand. We talk about the quality of relationships, the differences between a therapeutic relationship and the other kind (is there really a difference?), and the development of relationships. We also talk about self-awareness, the role and use of self, and the presentation of self (normally in relationships, of course). But important, and unanswered, questions are raised by these discussions of self and relationship, like:

  • Is relationship really central to our work?
  • Does self exist independent of relationship?
  • If I am attending to relationship, am I fully there 'in relationship' or is the part of me that is monitoring self somehow outside of what is going on?
  • When 'self' is aware, is it aware of the part of self that is being in a state of awareness?
  • What is this thing we call self? Or this thing we call relationship?

It is our hope that this issue of the Journal begins to at least address some of these issues, if not to answer them.
Sometimes when I participate in, or overhear, conversations about 'self' and the role or use of self in child and youth care, I think I am wandering in the realm of the absurd. I mean, how can we have a conversation about something that is, in essence, beyond talking about? If the self is aware, I wonder, can it be aware of itself at the same time that it is 'being in awareness'? It seems to me that what we must be doing is applying a part of ourselves to look at that part of ourselves which we can see (experience) which, by definition, makes the observing part outside of the observation itself. Analyzing self seems akin to the idea of an emotion feeling itself as it is occurring, or the brain thinking about how it is thinking. It all seems very complicated to me. I remember the old ideas of navel-gazing, or the snake swallowing its own tail, and I wonder if this activity of 'being aware of self' does not fall into the same category. I am further led to wonder if 'self' is only something we can reflect upon in retrospect, not in the present. Don't get me wrong. I believe in self and the importance of self in the youth care relationship. Sometimes I am just not sure what it is I am believing in.
And I have the same kinds of questions about the notion of relationship and being in relationship. Not that I don't think we can be in relationship, but I do wonder if we can truly 'be in relationship' if we are paying attention to whether or not we are so being. Again, it raises the 'observer' question for me. If I am able to be objective enough to notice whether or not I am being in relationship, am I not on the outside looking in, rather than on the inside experiencing?
I do see a way out of my current difficulty but I am not sure that it makes any more sense than what I have been talking about so far. I think the answer might lay in the word (and experience of) 'being'. However, it requires suspending our disbeliefs for a few minutes. It also requires a letting go of this passion (or obsession) we seem to have with understanding everything, or having our brains be the centre of our interpretation of our experiences.
It seems to me that the more energy and activity I invest in the analysis of my experiencing, the more distant I must become from the actual experiencing itself. In other words, the more I think about what I am experiencing, the more I am into the analysis, and the less I am into the experiencing itself. For example, the more energy I spend in noticing the elements of the relationship I am in, the less I am actually in the relationship, and the more removed from actually 'being in relationship' I become.
So then comes the question, can self actually be aware of self? Or can I be in relationship and at the same time notice if I am so being?
It seems to me that the answer to those two questions has to be no.
Which leads me to the conclusion that 'being' requires the suspension of concurrent analysis as we usually think of it. And this of course is where the notion of self takes on active meaning for me because when I suspend the analysis of my experiencing as I am in the act of that experiencing, then I think maybe I am truly with self. And if I would be with another person, it would seem that I would also have to give up my analysis of that other in order to truly be with that other person. So, in order to be in relationship, a genuine self-to-self relationship, both I and the other person would have to suspend the process of analysis of both self and other, as we usually think of it.
Now I realize that there is a danger to this suggestion of the suspension of our tendency to be so analytic: that people will think it means we should just go ahead and be in relationship with others without thinking about what we are doing. Nothing could be farther from the truth. To be able to be in relationship with other, which requires a deep understanding of, and ability to be with, one's self is an activity that requires courage, sensitivity and consideration.
The courage is necessary in order to let go of the defenses we normally use to limit our experiencing. The sensitivity is necessary in order to be able to have the experience and the consideration is necessary, both before and after the act, to allow us to be able to actually 'be' with intentionality.
So, to go back to the beginning: what is self and what is relationship? It is our hope that this issue of the Journal may help you to address these essential questions. But before I go, let me leave you with an embarrassingly simple little exercise which, if you do it honestly, may make all of the foregoing more meaningful.
Take a deep breath. Let it out. Notice how much you were thinking about what you were doing. Now do it again and while you are doing so, don't think about what you are doing. Suspend your analytical tendencies. Just experience it. Now, keep doing this until you can take a deep breath and let it out without having a thought about what you are doing. Once you can do it on your own, find a willing partner and do it together until you can both breathe together without thinking about what you are doing. Now find something you want to experience about yourself while you are with the other. And then find something you want to experience of the other. Just as you did with your breathing, allow yourself to experience the other without the defensive limitations of your own thinking.
Now go and experience this issue. And don't think about it too hard.

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